So yeah... it's ok, you know? Not much more to say than that... things are pretty good right now. Work has been busy-busy-busy. I haven't had much time to exercise lately. I haven't had any time for music lately... and I lack a little of desire in that regard.
All in all, though, I am ok. I am a work in progress, and right now, the progress is slow.
I worry about the same things as always... love, happiness, financial matters, music, where I'm going with my life, where the journey is heading. Yeah, I need a vacation. But things aren't that bad.
There was a time in my life when I faked myself into an era of positivity... which then begat it's own positivity. It was a spiritually motivated time, and though my heart was much more of a barren, rocky wasteland than I let on (oh, the emo imagery in that statement...), I acted like everything was all ok, and acted very positive.
A funny thing happened. I became more positive, and not fake-posi, but true-posi. Good vibes. Good times. Connections.
Yeah, I can look back and say there were some bad times, and that some people took advantage of my giving, caring spirit at the time. But I was truly happy, and less stressed.
And if I don't stop the stress level from rising in my life, it's going to kill me. No joke.
So... here's to fake-quasi-positivity, and the hope that it turns and returns into real positivity.
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YES! I'll drink to that. I've been trying out the fake-posi as well. Being negative gets exhausting after awhile. I hope it works for both of us. :)
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