Taking Back Control

So... I was "stood up" last night. Which is really no big deal and not anything that hasn't happened before. Maybe it was karma for keeping someone else guessing, or for some other shitty dating thing I've done. I am not perfect, and while I generally try and treat people they way I'd like to be treated, I fail sometimes. We're all human, we've all been screwed and we've all screwed over someone else. It happens.

But, sitting in front of my PC last night, I began to think... I thought about two things, really. First, that dating sucks, and modern options for dating suck. And second, that I should make a form/post/whatever that was 100% brutally honest, and that anyone applying to date me should have the both read it, and fill one out the same way.

This morning, on my drive into work, Bob and Tom (the radio show) were talking to a mormon comedian who had tried the online dating thing. Then the comedian talked about speed dating. He mentioned that, hey, if you like getting rejected once a day, try speed dating, where you get rejected 30 times an hour!

Dating sucks. Well, no, scratch that... trying to date, beginning to date, however you want to say it... that sucks. Knowing someone, spending time together, getting to know each other... that stuff is nice. But the getting there sucks. The finding someone who is willing sucks - on both ends. It's not always me, and it's not always her.

The thing that pisses me off - and yes, it really does piss me off - about last night... I have no idea what made this person decide to be a bitch and blow me off. What I thought was nice and polite - and yes, I know, I am apparently way too nice and way too polite - did that turn out to be "clingy" or "desperate." You know, that's bullshit. I emailed to confirm a date the day before, then texted a few hours before when I got no response. The last communication I had before that said feel free to call me. Maybe that is too passive. But do you crazy ass girls really think that much about this shit?

I swear, some people are way too fucking insane for my tastes. Girls are pretty much all just bat-shit crazy - either it's too clingy this, or they are too clingy that. Either I am not Jesusy enough, or too much. I cuss too much, not enough. I'm too clean-cut, or not enough. Or they're too clean-cut, or not enough, too Jesusy or not enough, etc etc etc. Girls... you are all nuts. Women, you are all nuts. Ladies... damn, you crazy.

Stay tuned... I am so doing a dating application post.